Not Yet

 

 

Author: Doqz

Fandom: Troy

Rating U Gen

 

Nobody sings about the day after.

The blind singer was good, the rhymes hitting all the right spots, bringing tears to the eyes of men he remembered laughing under the blade. They clapped and cheered and rushed to refill his cup. His son kept glancing at him furtively, the silence of the king becoming more conspicuous by the second. The old, oh so old, ruler of Ithaca sighed quietly and rose praising the young bard with the clever tongue that has been legendary among Hellenes long before the walls of proud Ilios tumbled into dust, humbled in the sight of Gods and men. His court roared with approval, the winds of memory sweeping through his hall, searing away the fog of time and bringing back the mayhem days of glory, blood and splendor

Bright days, when legends walked besides him and he could feel the jealous breath of the Immortals on his neck. The Age of Heroes. Didn't the young bard just tell them so?

Old, oh so old, king of Ithaca hid his smile behind the cup and quietly slid out of the room, noting with quiet pride the smooth aplomb with which Telemachus centred the attention of the room on himself, so that only Penelope's clever, worried eyes followed him out.

The warm wind off the Etruscan sea caressed his cheek with familiarity of the long friend and beckoned him. Back out there, to feel the oar on the callused palm again, to feel the galley's wooden wings spread under his feet again, to chase Eos and race Phaeton to the horizon again. Again, just once.

The sugary sound of the lyre carried from behind him and he smiled again, openly now with the acid scorn he's hidden for so long. Swift footed Achilles. Of course, the singer was asked to sing of him again. The broad shouldered idol of the Hellas.

Agamemnon, my old friend, we did it you and I, we yoked a hundred of dull-witted tin-pot kings and burned Priam's pride and made the pyre high enough to reach Zeus-Father's throne. But you will go down in men's memory as an envious, cuckolded braggart killed by an unfaithful wife and they will remember me as the trickster, too clever for his own good. And the glory and honor will be laid at the Achilles's feet, that bright-eyed killer that almost cost us victory a hundred times, chasing his immortality and paying with other men's blood.

He laughed; rich, soft sound. Imagining how Agamemnon would rage at the unfairness of it all. Were he still alive.

Agamemnon dead. It still seemed strange, unreal almost to imagine the world without his mad force in it. A man so full of life and hunger for it that he seemed to even tower over Ajax at times. Agamemnon dead, and Menelaus reigning still with Helen at his side.

Gods will always have the last laugh in the end.

Nobody sung of the day after. With silver creeping into the hero's hair, the muscles tiring, the back stooping. None sung of time spilling through his fingers like water through a sieve. None sung of what it felt like to envy his own son the youth and bright promise of the years ahead.

The wind ruffled his beard, grey oh so grey beard, and he gritted his teeth at the sudden onrush of the desire to simply walk down to the pier and be off. Hermes, trickster and wanderer pulling at his sleeve again. Impatient, bored, sly smile full of promising and new horizons.

The burning Troy, sung of in the hall behind him, held no regrets for him, it did not haunt his dreams. When he closed his eyes and thought of better days he didn't find himself in Troad. He didn't miss the blood-soaked beach, the smell of burning stone or the shield's weight on his back.

But Hermes, the God of my secret dreams, the thief of calm, bring me another day of waves and wind at my back. Just one more day.

"My king?"

Her hand on his shoulder was lighter than a feather and he covered it gently with his own, without turning. A second later he felt her arm around his waist and her chin on his shoulder, peering into the darkness along with him.

The silence stretched, until he felt more than heard her sigh. Clever, regretful, forgiving.

"Not yet."

He bade the wind good bye and turned, squinting against the glare of the light coming from the hall. "No, not yet." And he followed his queen back toward the fire and wine, to reminisce about the bloody memories of glorious days past.

The sea would wait.

He wouldn't be chasing Hermes this night.

Not yet.

But soon.

-fin-